fashioned out of brand new strife

moving back to san jose with weird ideas.

i haven't even fully moved out yet and already: my mom's been taken to the hospital twice and went to a ridiculous court hearing, i've had prospects of starting a business, ideas of going back to school, another arguous job hunt, a day long hospital visit.

today my brain is empty, i went to court with my mom, cleaned her house and walked her dogs. i try not to focus on the way things could be better, i try to focus on working towards the better.

it's hard when my efforts are combated by more drinking and smoking and destruction, especially when i haven't fully arrived yet.

this is gonna be hard.