healthier alternatives

i'm pretty sure there was a time when i liked myself. i don't remember being this concerned with the way i look. i wonder what happened?




on a different topic, paloma has declared war on the house cat, romeo. i told her it was probably a bad idea, that in order to navigate appropriately through healthy progress and growth we must keep all relations peaceful. she didn't listen.



i've decided to declare neutrality.

the lucksmiths got it

careful careful

something

very


big


is



missing


today.

where the winds are heavy

i want to be in a folk band

interesting looking black people

someone told me: "tongans are like interesting looking black people"

hmm...

ordinary things

this happens to be exactly how i start my day too...

sweet to me

overcoming fitness

somedays i feel more obliged than others, thats just how i am made. i feel constraints beyond my means and i see no part of the immideate that can service my ability to always be unrelatable.

somedays i feel more starry, more dizzy, more like i did the first time i met everbody. i can't ever discribe what goes on inside my heart but i know it's a good thing, usually.

the shoe fitting is not the case, and i never want it to be the case. i know what i want and when i want it, i trust myself enough to know how to react now, to know that there is nothing in my make-up that dictates my ability to "relate". i can do whatever i like and it's not my problem who "gets me" and who doesn't, who's "figured me out" and who hasn't.

for a while i was looking for a place to fit and to stay forever. i'm not anymore. it's a lie, it doesn't exist.

now i know.

i cannot make my home out of another turtle's shell.

coooool-uh